At the age of thirteen, my life was greatly altered from an unexpected source, classical
music. During the coarse of one day in 1995, I forever changed how I view the world of
classical music. I found my mothers Classical Hits CD and proceeded to listen to it out
of curiosity. Noticing the depth of the sound, I found the answer to a void my ears had
noticed in other music I had listened to. The love for this style of music grows more
every time I listen to, perform, or even try to compose a classical piece. The real value of
this music is the freedom within the precision of the music.
Listening to classical music is a great escape for me. I have the opportunity to
play the role of interpreter for the composers voice. I am in charge of how I perceive the
music, and I can change the message in the song every time. This is very unlike
contemporary music where the artist has lyrics or music videos to convey their message.
The composer must sit back and let me take charge of how I perceive the music. I can let
it take me to a world of fantasy, where I am in complete control. This control is even
greater when I use my abilities to perform a piece of music.
Performance puts me in the drivers seat of what I want to convey in the composers
music. I am given a paper with marks on it and get to make it into music. I can shape the
parts within the music to make the piece not only the composers but also a part of myself.
I must admit that I am no great performer and probably will never be, but I do enjoy
attempting to make music that I listen to a part of me. It gives me the control of how I
can manipulate the fantasy of the music. After putting myself into someone elses music,
I have had the intentions of creating my own world of thoughts for others to perform.
Composing classical music is not an easy task for me, but I still continue to write
it. It gives me the chance to guide other people through a musical interpretation of my
emotions. I know my composing skills are lacking, like my performing abilities, but I
keep going with the hope that the masterpiece in my mind will one day come out on paper
for musicians to share with the world. In the back of my mind I have doubts that I will
ever compose something for the world, but that does not matter since I really do it for
myself. That is why classical music such value to me.
Whether it be listening to, performing, or composing, I have grown to appreciate
the power of classical music. Its value to me will never bring fortune or fame to my
door, but instead a greater power, happiness. The chance for me to enjoy music and let it
take me to a whole new world. This is an outlet for my emotions that I will forever